Alisa Bennett and her three kids, Cedar, 11, Fisher, 8 and Tanner, 7 try not to watch.
"I typically try not to allow myself to go there," Alisa Bennett said. "It's not easy to get through if you think something's going to happen to your spouse."
Her husband, Jason Bennett, is a fire fighter with the Poudre Fire Authority. For the 18 years they've been married, he's fought large fires in Colorado and all over the country.
"He has a really cool job and I like it," Cedar Bennett proudly said. "I think it's pretty cool because he's able to save homes [and] sometimes that actually saves lives too."
But with every job he does, there is also fear.
"I was a little worried because he was on that fire and we did not know where he was at all," Tanner Bennett said.
Mom Alisa tries not feel the fear every time Jason goes to work.
"How do I get through it? I try not to think about the dangerous aspects, try not to worry about it," she said.
The High Park fire is not the biggest Jason Bennett has been on.
"Online is my resource," Bennett said. "News is good. But I have to limit it because it can be overwhelming. I try to get just the facts, ma'am. I look online. I find out where the structures are. I look at mapping. I look at where the wind is going to be, the humidity level, all these tricks Jason's taught me over the years [and] how to look for fire danger and fire safety."
But no map will tell her where her husband is. A decade ago, before cell phone and internet, there were no maps and often no phone calls from the hot shot team Jason was on. Sometimes there was no work for three weeks at a time.
These days, she may not hear from him for 24 hours or more.
Bennett said the work Jason does is certainly important, but she doesn't want to hear the details until after he's done.
"Sunday night he was right there, right on the fire line," she said. "He was lighting fires to back burn to save houses. They were defending houses that absolutely would have gone up if he and his crew hadn't rolled up that dirt road at that time. I'm glad that I didn't know that he did it when he did it, but I'm glad I knew the next day, because I was really proud of him."
There is a lot of pride when your loved one is a firefighter. It's the kind of love that makes the fear possible to bare.
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