June 30, 2012; Denver, CO USA; Colorado Rockies first baseman Todd Helton looks into stands while playing the San Diego Padres at Coors Field. Mandatory Credit: Andrew Carpenean-USA TODAY Sports
SCOTTSDALE, Ariz. - The first and most painful step of Todd Helton's admission wasn't in a public forum, like the one Sunday with media members. It instead came inside his home when he had to explain his actions to his 10-year-old daughter.
"I told her I made a mistake, and just like daddy forgives you of your mistakes you have to learn," said Helton amid several thoughtful pauses. "When I talk about making the right steps I'm talking about her too. She holds me very accountable too."
Helton was visibly disappointed, embarrassed and apologetic throughout the first press conference since he was arrested for suspicion of drunk driving.
Rather than moving on, forgetting about this incident and its consequences, the veteran wants the memory to stick with him. It's a moment he obviously isn't proud of, but one that he will use and ultimately grow from.
"It is a tough situation, dealing with this, but it's something that I don't know how far behind I want it [to get] because I always want to remember it. That's how you're going to learn from it," Helton said as he stood in front of a Rockies backdrop with words like 'Accountability', 'Character' and 'Integrity' to describe the makeup of the club.
Yet nobody felt worse than Helton about what had occurred. He let himself down.
"There is nobody harder on myself than me," Helton said. "I was more disappointed in myself than anybody."
Helton, who will be entering his 17th season in professional baseball, was adamant in his apology, making no excuses for what he did. He asked people for forgiveness, planned to make amends and was resolute in his motives to never let this mistake happen ever again.
"I am determined to learn from my mistakes," he said.
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